NOT JUST talking garden to plate. That and so much more! Going from feeling like dirt to feeling delicious. And then there is the creative process, going from the seed of an idea, to connecting my thoughts with my visuals. Sometimes a bit random but always getting back to deliciousness.
I am a major to do list writer.Almost every 24 hours (with many editing notes and check marks in between) I like to dump out my busy to do list banging around in my head on paper . Yep , a spiral notebook that seems to be easier to get stuff down faster than ANY digital means. That, along with my personal life hacker tracker and I can actually have a better grip on where my illusions of grandeur wish list of dos end, and reality of what gets done begins. But the best part of the overwhelm that really seems to get me back on track ? After the mid day review… I usually take a 30 minute to 1 hour meditation/nap break that most Hard to do in lots of work situations. I know. I used to close the blinds and lie under my desk with the door closed in my studio years ago 🙂 I have also been know to tell clients I need to go away for 30 minutes to hide and regroup during a long day shoot.
Kind of like starting a new day, mid day ! What you read about meditation is all true. Doing nothing really does help getting lots of stuff done, with much more clarity!
So say no to those wasted attempts to finding something left in that tired brain and say yes to checking out . Hope it helps you too.
So here we are . Oct 4 , 2015 . FINALLY fall is showing its Arizona Beauty. No fall colors here. Well unless you count the sukkah decorations from Michael’s crafts that attempt to satisfy the craving. Last few nights have FINALLY been tolerable to eat outside ( if you are like us and eat dinner late). Lunch in the sukkah today , thanks to strategic planning with tree branches overhead was actually quite pleasant. I could actually say working outside in the garden from 7am till 1pm with rain on and off began to feel like the reason gardeners garden !!! So here is to rain, and seeds and sprouts, and fall and moving on. Let the fall/winter sunny Arizona fun begin!
I know what it feels like to feel like dirt. In more ways than I wish to share. But when the outside temperature is past 103 degrees (as it was today on Oct 1 ) and it has been that way for months, I accept the fact that I have truly , passionately fallen in love with my summer fling.
Ok …. as you probably know if you read my posts and know me at all I am one of those crazy people that do not give up gardening in the brutal heat of the desert southwest summer. Honestly though by 9am I am drenched in my own salt and wiped out, but really gardening is just not the same as good old outdoor exercise and I do love the outdoors. BUT , I have NO desire to hike or walk and ride or even get in and out of cars in this heat. AND thanks to my husband I have become much more protective of my skin than I did for way too many years. Gone are the days of hiking in shorts and tank tops for me.
But I have a very true confession. This summer I fell madly and passionately in love and although I have not thrown caution to the wind completely ( I have taken many measures to protect myself ) I know I am still very vulnerable .
I have grown passionately in love with doing laps at the Scottsdale City Aquatic Center! Not exactly an extra marital affair so what is the big deal ? Well sadly the lap lane hours and my schedule have left me having to choose between truly safe swimming ( aka rarely due to the sun exposure ) or throwing caution to the wind and swimming mid day with protection . Honestly there is just not enough protection ! With a swim shirt on and lubed up with what seems to be 1/2 tube of sunscreen per session I still know I am getting way more exposure than is wise. AH, but the temperature of my body FINALLY internally REALLY cools down while I find the motivation to truly huff and puff , and I watch my thoughts disappear into the water. I actually am beginning to think the meditation and breath work that goes on in my 40-60 minute lap sessions truly surpass any yoga class , definitely working out in a gym surrounded by the add of all the tv monitors and music and people to relate to as I attempt to find a mindful moment.
SO for now I am totally into my summer love, and wondering how fickle my love will be. FYI my hiking boots have been getting used in the garden so they are not extremely jealous and get their fair share of my salt.
For years upon decades I always heard about meditation. I was so aware of the cornucopia of techniques. I just never felt I did meditate. Well I have grown to see that differently . For some odd reason the old philosophical question comes to mind “If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?” . If you fall asleep for an hour when you meditate and wake up more clear headed and relaxed, was it not a great session of mediation?
In all seriousness I can think of many meditation attempts where my head hurt from “trying ” to meditate. With that said I have grown to find for me moving meditations during walking in nature at sunrise or sunset listening to certain kinds of music and consciously being aware of my breath, or swimming laps where breath is obviously a focus, and focusing my mind while I swim on an affirmation while swimming have been great. I have also grown to really enjoy working on my meditation techniques using varied forms of mp3 or online support through headphones. Unfortunately many of the ones I tried did not inspire me… AND I used to think that it was a cheat, that it was not totally self generated. NOT anymore. But for some time now I have found a very special love of my at home meditation breaks during the day with yoga nidra, Silva Meditation techniques, or now also exploring Centerpointe’s Holosync. I am not going to say it has worked for me to meditate upon waking, like some folks I know. BUT taking a break during the day …. yummy! When I “wake up” from 60 minutes of meditation …. I am feeling mighty delicious! I may be falling asleep during meditation but for me…. I would say that is not such a bad thing 🙂 How about you?
I love love love walking/hiking/gardening/treadmilling while listening to inspiring podcasts, or downloaded awesome brain feed. One in particular podcast I love is GoodLifeProject. Today as I was once again brutally aware of how many things I truly desire doing between the hours of 5 am and 10 am, I am out at 7am making sure I got a walk in before it got into the 90’s and I was confronted by Jonathan Fields of GLP as he spoke directly to me ( or so it seemed) concerning the issue of not wasting our personal precious 5 star creative hours doing the stuff that is so easy to fall into ie FB, emails, news etc. ( and yes I know that is a run on sentence, get over it. ) AND yet for some of us ,is there not a conflict between when to get excercise and when to let our creative juices/ productivity flow? And what of getting kids to school and the parents that are filled with creative sparks at that time. SO when I get up tomorrow and make tea even while standing in the kitchen waiting for that wistle, I am going to start writing instead of just checking my you know what.
Sometimes I feel that my attempt at gardening in the summer is truly some sick joke I am playing on myself. After months of pampering, and after finally getting 5 yummy pickling cucumbers … I have now successfully killed several more plants it seems. Too much/ too little water, gazillion degree heat, too much or too little fish emulsion, etc etc. Wondering if these will be the last cucumbers I include in my art for many many many months ? AND I LOVE CUCUMBERS!!!! Ironically I have grown to also love dripping paint, which by the way is really not a good summer outdoor activity here either. The paint seems to dry before it even hits the canvas. I have been thinking… ( dangerous I know ) …this paint technique with this color paint makes me think that the desert dweller mother nature’s mascara is running .
Well I am starting to test the waters with proposals and researching funding and looking for space ( including checking out creating a Kickstarter and other crowd funding opportunities ) all to make this project really happen. If you would be interested in seeing the proposal or more details for this multi sensory healing and research project, let me know. Here is a vignette of part of one wall. Now visualize yourself in a room surrounded by work like this all in this color. Green, the Chakra color for the heart. Just one of several rooms. Much more to the project with smells and sounds and interactive questions with audience. Is Chakra system mumbo jumbo?
Working on the Chakra healing series of paintings does not always result in happy feeling paintings. Between my concern and attention to listening to what varied sources are saying here and abroad about the nuclear deal with Iran …and the fact that I finally watched the movie American Sniper movie the other night….prickly pear Cactus fruit appeared much more ominous when I was handling it this week.