Embedded terrorists analogy on my brain … my not so delicious disconnected thoughts?

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Why do I look at one of my garden images and ponder the analogy of the image I see. Here there are bees doing what they need to do, hiding within the the seeds of the sunflower. Are they nice worker bees, or are they mean nasty  bees? They have done nothing to harm me , and yet they create fear . Will they do me harm? This is such a light weight thought and analogy to the terror that is happening in the world. Knowing loved ones living in fear is hard to ignore. Knowing the world at large is in chaos is in my face. I search to create beauty. To share inspiration. Ok , I will say it.  To BEE positive .

I literally talk to the bees as I photograph them up close. We have an arrangement. We are in partnership. I want them to survive. They are not terrorists. Do bees have thoughts of me? Do they want me dead ?  No. I doubt that.

I need to stop writing .

What kind of stuff in life makes you feel delicious, and thank you dear veterans

Of course we know doing what we love to do always makes us feel better about ourselves and our life. Yadayadayada.  But sometimes it is overwhelming for me that there are so many things I love to do, want to do, need to do, have to do,  and that make me feel better when I do them .

Example at hand. I love to hike around sunrise and sunset. Sunrises can always be more problematic,especially  depending upon time of year, day of week etc.  Even more so with  photographing sunrises.

The iphone has become a good hiking companion for me: Podcasts, music, writing down notes to myself , photos and videos ( even though I still am having hard time taking them too seriously ). There has been many a time I have been so glad to have the opportunity to NOT have a  REAL camera. ( will not get into here the good and bad aspects of hiking with access to text, email or phone calls) .

So when a friend of mine asked me to help him locate an ideal  sunrise shot of a saguaro for his composite photographic art it got me to do something that I know makes  me feel delicious. The iphone scouting photos I sent him were a fun distraction from my “real” hike . More than that though it was “fun”  getting back into carrying the camera and tripod out at sunset with a real goal in mind, and with a partner in crime ….. honestly, it is a totally different kind of feeling delicious than my morning walking meditations… but both are so good for the  essence of what makes me feel delicious.

Yesterday was veteran’s day. I took this photo this past Sunday. When processing it yesterday I could not help but sense  I had a Saguaro  saluting  to all those veterans past, present and future who give so much .

What have you done today that makes you feel delicious?

What do you try to do everyday that gives you that buzz?

 

 

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What’s in my kitchen ?

What_is_it_in_my_kitchen?0831-2I posted this photo on my dirttodelicious instagram account the other day, and also my personal Facebook account. Interesting to see what people thought it was. No right answers so far. How long should I keep them guessing ?

As is so much in life… timing is everything. 🙂

fyi for my pixel peeping friends… I actually liked this iphone version of the shot better than my shot with macro lens and studio lights…life can be ironic in so many ways.

 

Portfolio life vs Inability to commit to one major focus vs Master of some vs Jack or Jill of all trades and how they relate to shame,empathy and self forgiveness

You know what I think may be even better than a good walk and talk with a dear friend! ?  A great solo walk / hike while listening to an inspiring  podcast.WHY? Because I can, without any psychological control issues choose exactly what I want to be listening to ! No need to do any  asking the right questions, choosing to shut up and only listen or  knowing  how to bare my own soul  (or not ) !

Good Life Project is a podcast that has never disappointed me .  I may have said it before but it is SO true.  ONLY problem is I am always in motion and do not write down /nor usually remember all the great references given in the podcast before I move onto doing other stuff.

 

Myth or fact : The way ti make anything look easy? By working at it, practice.
Myth or fact : The way to make anything look easy? By working at it, practice.

 

Today the  podcast  discussion  I listened to on Good Life Project with Jeff Goins ,”The Fine Art of Finding Your Calling ” is totally worth a listen to! This episode  really struck home on a subject near and dear to my heart and life. The term portfolio life has been totally in my face. Actually that is how this blog came to be! I wanted to see how I could ( pun intended ) weed out my passionate avocations/hobbies, interests/ hours of  time I spend without wanting to stop and resolve if and what would be appropriate addition to my vocations.    I also wanted  to see if this would be a great  way to reignite old passions of mine,to see if a new approach would be the spark I was looking for! SO here to to shaking up avocations/ hobbies/ and dabbling  with dreams of differnt income streams! Talk can be cheap, or expensive I guess once you get a great speaking circuit gig going 🙂

Listening to this  podcast today confirmed to me that being a  master of “some”  vs a  Jack or Jill of all trades was probably what I am  exploring… that is compared to my wearing the  “I am a photographer badge ” proudly as if I “should ” not confuse people with all the other wonderful creative outlets that were dear to me.

SO I get inside to do my notoriously long to do list ( which included make a point of doing a post on this site ) and then I go outside in the ( warm but not brutal heat) to work more on one of my other on going passions – the garden, and  got side tracked ( no surprise) while taking down the Sukkah … all while listening to the Big Magic Podcast with Elizabeth Gilbert. Yep , it was meant to be. Brene Brown and Elizabeth talking together truly reminds me of a great heart to heart with some of my dear friends. So what is the take away? MANY, lets see… I  will likely have to edit this post to really give more of the gist but a few of the loud and clears for me:

When we fail at a creative undertaking / or biz or ( fill in the blank of any major project you have invested bookoo time and bucks and emotions in)  it is not the time to negate inspiration. the antidote for that shame is empathy . And when it comes to discipline being the hallmark of getting these creative undertakings done think again how self forgiveness for what you did or did not accomplish today vs beating yourself up more that you did not show the proper amount of discipline.

Amen to that sistas.

And with that said . My big man work gloves that I wear on top of my skinny gloves to protect me from the pain of the puncture wounds from handling Argentinian Mesquite branchs with their 3 -4 inch thorns or the  Palm fronds that I just pulled off the Sukkah with their huge spikes…. seems spot on  for this particular blog post ( if I do say so myself ! )

 

 

Olives want attention too!

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Garlic olives, home grown, home made in the making

Olive trees. For those that are allergic,  they can be brutal. Messy, pesticide sprayed high maintenance trees that go along with ornamental oranges in my mind of silly fruit baring trees planted in the southwest!  BUT, if you do not spray them , and fertilize them and bother to go out of your way to pick and pickle them… delicious home grown , home made garlic olives = MAJOR yum for months. So as the temperature is starting to feel human  here, and with  LOTS of urban farming things to do outside ( beside the rest of life to dos/ work  and … did I say hiking  anyone ?)  picking and pickling olives is on my timely to do list ! Snooze you loose.

 

My answer to my unrealistic to do list … do nothing, it actually helps me get things done!

I am a major to do list writer.Almost every 24 hours (with  many editing notes and check marks in between)  I like to dump  out my busy to do list banging around in my head on paper . Yep , a spiral notebook that seems to be easier to get stuff down faster than ANY digital means. That, along with my personal life hacker tracker and  I can actually have a better grip on where my  illusions of grandeur wish list of dos end, and reality of what gets done begins. But the best part of the overwhelm that really seems to get me back on track ? After the mid day review… I usually take a 30 minute to 1 hour meditation/nap  break that most Hard to do in lots of work situations. I know. I used to close the blinds and lie under my desk with the door closed in my studio years ago 🙂 I have also been know to tell clients I need to go away for 30 minutes to hide and regroup during a long day shoot.

Kind of like starting a new day, mid day ! What you read about meditation is all true. Doing  nothing really does help getting lots of stuff done, with much more clarity!

So say no to those wasted  attempts to finding  something left in that tired  brain and say yes to checking out . Hope it helps you too.

Amazing how shutting down briefly really lights up my barin
Amazing how shutting down briefly really lights up my brain. Dare I call it a reboot?  Nothing surprising here to readers who regularly meditate  … or nap  🙂

What is the old saying something about turning, a new leaf , or a page or something

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So here we are . Oct 4 , 2015 . FINALLY fall is showing its Arizona Beauty. No fall colors here. Well unless you count the sukkah decorations from Michael’s crafts that attempt to satisfy the craving. Last few nights have FINALLY been tolerable to eat outside ( if you are like us and eat dinner late). Lunch in the sukkah  today , thanks to strategic planning with tree branches overhead was actually quite pleasant.  I could actually say working outside in the garden from 7am till 1pm with rain on and off began to feel like the reason gardeners garden !!! So here is to rain, and seeds and sprouts, and fall and moving on. Let the fall/winter sunny Arizona fun  begin!

Meditation and naps and feeling delicious

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For years upon decades I always heard about meditation. I was so aware of the cornucopia  of techniques. I just never felt I did meditate. Well I have grown to see that differently . For some odd reason  the old philosophical question comes to mind “If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?” . If you fall asleep for an hour when you meditate and wake up more clear headed and relaxed, was it not a great session of mediation?

In all seriousness I can think of many meditation attempts where my head hurt from “trying ” to meditate.  With that said I have grown to find for me moving meditations during walking in nature at sunrise or sunset listening to certain kinds of music and consciously being aware of my breath, or swimming laps where breath is obviously a focus, and focusing my mind while I swim on an affirmation while swimming  have been great. I have also grown to really enjoy working on my meditation techniques using varied forms of mp3 or online support through headphones. Unfortunately many of the ones I tried did not inspire me… AND  I used to think that  it was a cheat, that it was not totally self generated. NOT anymore.  But for some time now I have found  a very special love of my at home meditation breaks during the day with   yoga nidra, Silva Meditation techniques, or now also exploring Centerpointe’s Holosync. I am not going to say it has worked for me to meditate upon waking, like some folks I know.  BUT taking a break during the day …. yummy! When I “wake up”  from 60  minutes of meditation …. I am feeling mighty  delicious! I may be falling asleep during meditation  but for me…. I would say that is not such a bad thing 🙂 How about you?

When are you really most productive?

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The mind is a wonderful thing to use. SO much or so little can be happening in there!

I love love love walking/hiking/gardening/treadmilling while listening to inspiring podcasts, or downloaded awesome brain feed. One in particular podcast I love is GoodLifeProject. Today as I was once again brutally aware of how many things I truly desire doing between the hours of 5 am and 10 am, I am out at 7am  making sure I got a walk in before it got into the 90’s and  I was confronted by Jonathan Fields of GLP as he spoke directly to me ( or so it seemed) concerning the issue of not wasting our personal  precious 5 star creative hours doing the stuff that is so easy to fall into ie FB, emails, news  etc. ( and yes I know that is a run on sentence, get over it. )  AND yet for some of us ,is there not a conflict between when to get excercise and when to let our creative juices/ productivity flow? And what of getting kids to school and the parents that are filled with creative sparks at that time.  SO when I get up  tomorrow and make tea even while standing in the kitchen waiting for that wistle,  I am going  to start writing instead of just checking my you know what.

My first batch of Kombucha Scoby

Kind of looks like beer here, but my scoby is pretty impressive I think!
Now that I know how much sugar and black tea goes into it, I am not really sure I am buying in totally with all the health aspect of Kombucha ye…but it really is a fun science experiment. AND being that I am notoriously not good at following directions…. I let it sit for 6 weeks instead of 1-4 weeks, and got a 3/4 plus” scoby not a 1/4″ one. Now I have my first official batch of Kombucha brewing with that scoby and looking forward to making it into Ginger Kombucha serving it nice and cold wine glasses. A shout out thank you to thekitchn.com for the great recipes!

What if mother nature wore mascara in the desert ?

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Sometimes I feel that my attempt at gardening in the summer is truly some sick joke I am playing on myself. After months of pampering, and after finally getting 5 yummy pickling cucumbers … I have now successfully killed several more plants it seems. Too much/ too little water, gazillion degree heat, too much or too little fish emulsion, etc etc.  Wondering if these will be the last cucumbers I include in my art for many many many months ? AND I LOVE CUCUMBERS!!!! Ironically I have grown to  also love dripping paint, which by the way  is really not a good summer outdoor activity here either.  The paint seems to dry before it even hits the canvas. I have been thinking… ( dangerous I know ) …this paint technique with this color paint makes me think that the desert dweller mother nature’s mascara is running .