The shape of okra reminds me of tear drops and yet I do not feel at all sad when looking at okra…. well that is except for when my plans have been destroyed by various natural predators in my garden.
How is it possible to loose time, like a missing sock in the laundry?
Or should I spend more time reading the book I think it is called The $64 tomato?
With all the things that are important to me and my priorities…. eating home grown is one of them… but then again so is my art, and family and friends, and movement/exercise that does not mess up my back and wrists like gardening seems to. And of course we all have bills to pay… and dues to pay.
So many choices … how much time ?
This web site/ blog started out as a place for show and tell about many aspects of what I am up to. Ironically the web/blog became a project itself for learning how to be securely maintaining a word press site ! With that said I have not been very consistent at all. By no means not as consistent as the great plugins that have kept out all the hackers from around the world that for unknown reasons think they are me and have access to the guts of this site. Do I look like a political party ? Anyhoo… if you are here to see my photography or my paintings or learn more about The Cheer project or find out what I am learning /finding in my organic garden and my test kitchen…. Thank you for coming back and please do sign up so I know who you are and that you stopped by .
2016 title FROM DARKNESS TO UNITY
Lat night I coached at the Phoenix location of the international challah bake . Today when I woke up at 4am I had the realization that as I know all too well painting in red – root chakra ( the base that holds fear ) would not be good for my health right now and intuitively that is why I could not allow myself to create what I had the idea to do the last few days. Red can be very agitating if I am in the wrong emotional space. Hiking and lying on a rock in the sun like a lizard felt good on Wed. It was healing to be without sound by myself after a couple hour hike with a dear friend NOT talking about the election ( despite my initial desire to cry and scream) . Only regret not having done it yesterday. Today is a new day. My purple cauliflower premonition at the the grocery store Tuesday afternoon was right. I can only imagine the pain and sole searching and processing Hillary and all those that worked so hard are feeling. At 6am today Nov 11, I am putting my big girl shoes on. Blue and red = purple , Hillary knew it. Unity. I live in a very long standing red state ( Arizona) . It is too painful to feel battered internally or externally, by the anger, confusion, fear, anxiety , disappointment and ( oh yeah ) immobilization. IF Trump and Obama can publicly get on with the transition amicably … I need to focus on what I CAN DO to support unity. Purple it will be. From paintings I have already done this one from 2013 seems so painfully appropriate at this time. And just with any kind of grief we can not just stuff the pain away and act as if it never happened but the question is for how long and in what way do we grieve and in what way do we heal?
I want to paint but so far away from feeling centered.
I want to make a mixed media root chakra painting pertaining to the fear and anxiety surrounding the news
And yet I do not want to share or inspire angst with the viewers / participants… but all par to the research I guess.
What you do not see ( as in the media is layered under the paint) will you feel the angst?
I try to make a point of painting while surrounded by meditative sounds and smells … so listening the news is really not productive !
Do you meditate? What type of meditations do you do ? Are you sitting ?
I had tried on and off for decades. The 5-10 minutes at end of yoga class never really did much for me. Seems like I was busy with my to do list. And that is even after going through extensive yoga teacher training ! But over the past 3 years or more I have been really exploring different types of meditation. I want to share an insight that I had this morning . It is now 6:20 am. Having been awake since 3:30, yep … I played in bed with cozy head phone strap on and once again went into a space I can no honestly describe . I have really gotten into binaural sound meditation amongst other ones. I lay there ( not sitting up ) and listen to about an hour meditation ( yep way too long for regular daytime use for me !) from Centerpointe called Holosync ( one called Dive then it goes into Immersion) . Pretty wild I can literally feel my brain response . Some days I actually feel hung over from it other days huge clarity. But then I am also presently working with Chopra and Oprah’s 21 day live streaming meditation. This particular series is called “Getting Unstuck “.
SO what is the point of my rambling when I know my priorities of today are NOT writing on this blog? Well by break of dawn today I was tending to pool matters and tree watering and then with the beautiful sunrise and decided to do Chopra/Oprah’s mediation while taking a brief walk. This entailed re-listening to day 9 of “Getting Unstuck” (which seems to be VERY much issue for me.)
Re-listening seems to be important cause it seems so often I forget what was said or REALLY struggle with the silent mantra mediation that is probably around 10 minutes (?) of the whole thing. WOW as I walked quietly at sunrise I found I was MUCH better at staying with the mantra than when I sit or lie down (anytime of day.)
Considering that I have been enjoying a summer practice of doing laps 4-5 days a week for 40-65 minutes each swim, I can not help but wonder what it would be like to listen with water proof ear buds and waterproof iPhone or iPod…ugh sounds like too much more set up to swim. SO for now… I am aware that the mind has endless ability to explore AND find focus as I glide through the water, or walk , or hike, but for me the “skill set” of sitting or lying in meditation and keeping a mantra still does not compare. Still working on it though 🙂
PS my run on sentences in my writing that my blog software gently reminds me of will hopefully improve as my mantras get more locked down 🙂
My husband and I have been working on a cheesecake that is gluten and sugar free. This is the latest iteration. I must say the photo is not best beauty image…. but it was the last piece and I really wanted to photographic it quickly cause I was jonesing for another piece! SO much for my career as a food photographer to patiently wait for a stylist 🙂
Structure AWESOME ( well still working on the crust)
Recipe still going through refining. I am not a cheese cake junkie but this is really changing my thoughts. I have gotten down to 1/2 goat dairy product 1/2 cow dairy…. and working to change that too. For now it is totally gluten and sugar free !!! And no Splenda like they use at cheese cake factory.
I am due for another try on this and being that my husband and father in law love cheesecake…. to be continued. Did I say guilt free 🙂 I think you would have to be a serious sugarholic to think it was not sweet enough!
“Emergent ” , my temporary art installation for INFLUX Cycle 6 has been installed since early April . Wow time flies. INFLUX 7 cities temporary art installation project that is in it’s 6th year around the Phoenix Metro are. I am so happy to say I was chosen this year by the Scottsdale Public Art to be one of 3 artists to create art to cover the exterior of 3- 5×8 Ft windows in the gallery district of Scottsdale AZ. If you are in the area anytime until end of November 2016 you can find it inside the courtyard at Marshall Square ( 7077 E Main St ) on the west side of the Expressions Gallery.
The Influx Bike tour and Influx Bus tour were great opportunities for the artists to talk to folks in person about our pieces . I promised folks I would write up some tech notes for the pixel peepers and consistent to how I do things… poof…. I got caught up in other things . Not great marketing,and so much for priorities.
I would like to share some back ground story on the piece. When I applied I was asked to submit 5 images of work, along with a BRIEF reason why I would be good for this project and my bio. What was wild is that when you apply you have NO idea what city or property or project you are applying for! I had no idea when I applied I would be asked to produce a photo this large, that was it would be displayed outdoors in an area where the viewer was very close to the image . Add to that the piece was to be on display for 7-9 months in Scottsdale AZ heat and sun. I was not looking for billboard quality printing here. I wanted people to feel they could walk up and see the detailed resolution. Artisan Colour was spot on with helping me make this happen with their quality output . You can read more about some technical aspects of the project at a blog at their site:
I really do want to tell you more, and am overdue on this blog of mine.. and really and truly have written an outline for this blog some time ago,but considering it is now June 17… I am posting this and will write more on another blog at a later date 🙂
Public Art installations are a business model all of their own for artists. Something I have been involved with applying for and getting hired for on and off for many years. Many more rejections that acceptances I can honestly say. This is one of the 5 images I submitted in the fall 2015 for review to be considered one of the artists to be part of the InFlux 6 public art program in Scottsdale Az and varied surrounding cities. ( More about this later in this post)
There has been a great number of new subscribers to this blog and I want to thank you all for being here. With that said if you made a comment that has not posted as of yet … I have been very busy and need to take the time to review the posts before having them on this site , replying to people directly … and honestly researching to make sure these are not just folks that want to advertise to you via my blog , and trying to figure out why some folks signing up go by totally different email name than by user name. Being that I do not know these people personally it is confusing. SOOO, any comments , help or feed back on that would be greatly appreciated! The world of blogging, like so much else is a work in progress and a learning curve all of its own.
With that said, hope you are all working on making , keeping your life delicious. Some days it is easier than others. I am excited to say I am in the throws of a deadline for the public art project I mentioned at beginning of this post , and I look forward to sharing more about it after I get through this initial deadline of plans for review and then on to … very quick production turn around. Feeling like dirt after 2 hours sleep last night waking with working on the plans in my mind….3 hours work instead of sleeping and a few hours more sleep and thanks to my high energy diet / and meditation I am back at it. NOW need to get some sun and exercise into my day too besides computer time 🙂
Wishing you all the best. Some like it hot.
I am grateful for the beauty of the cold grey structure of clouds (shot on my iphone ) as nature is preparing for a several day weather change, seen while taking a desert walk with family on Sunday Jan 3, 2016. Consistent with my never ending pondering on dirt to delicious I can say that today (Wed) after what I hear was only 1/2 inch rain since the cold rains started Sunday night. Hard to imaging that is all that came down. And the veggies almost instantly responded with what I think I heard whispers of “thank you!”. And the sky was wild this am again with clouds socked into the mountains for the 3rd day !
I am very grateful to live in sunny Scottsdale AZ. But love this serious weather change and looking for a silver lining. Family, friends,etc come here in the winter with expectations of clear blue skies and sun and warmth, and considering how little rain we get… the idea that it will be dry here ! While they may have had to change their plans around the weather I am happy to say I have had the opportunity to hike in clothing that was purchased to ski in, and made good use of rain gear .
I have had the practice of posting quotes/ notes/ good stuff around desk, mirrors, kitchen, bedroom for years, to remind me of what to think about. You know, positive, motivating stuff. Blah blah blah…when do I read them after I post them? Right now I am thinking of a few I am writing and think I will post them here:
” Look forward to those days that are totally off the mark from your expectations…. there is beauty to be found there”.
“After every rain day …. look for growth”
“The storm is truly preceding a time of growth”
and of course
“Be grateful for what you have , while not dwelling on what you lack ”
Happy New Year to all of you and hoping 2016 brings you some easy storms, some clouds with silver lining, being in the right place at the right time with the right state of mind to see the positive in every challenge which can offer you rainbows and growth afterwards…you know , the deliciousness we all want… and while we are at it….nothing wrong with visualizing a pot of gold at the base of that rainbow 😉
Here is to creating deliciousness,while warm in my fleece
What did I learn this year?
What and whom did I invest my time , energy, focus and money on this year?
What has REALLY served me in my goals… hmmm goals for 2016?
Did I get the results I was looking for? What did I learn from the accomplishments and the frustrations?
What do I plan to do, experience, learn, be committed to changing , and embed myself in during 2016?
What do I CHOOSE to keep same and /or different? Whose life is this anyway?
Am I going to write these thoughts down? Keep them in my head?
Make a plan?
Would it be more cathartic to yelling the answers out loud and declaring myself so OVER this , or that?
Just thinking as I rush through today’s to do list?
Will this evaluation happen today / tonight/ tomorrow…. when ?
Will I take time for a spiritual transition?
Will I make it an intellectual thought , or a transforming experience?
And what about you?
Wishing you deliciousness in 2016, in body mind and spirit … and all that you are committed to creating in your life .
Thank you for taking the time to be here with me.