Portfolio life vs Inability to commit to one major focus vs Master of some vs Jack or Jill of all trades and how they relate to shame,empathy and self forgiveness

You know what I think may be even better than a good walk and talk with a dear friend! ?  A great solo walk / hike while listening to an inspiring  podcast.WHY? Because I can, without any psychological control issues choose exactly what I want to be listening to ! No need to do any  asking the right questions, choosing to shut up and only listen or  knowing  how to bare my own soul  (or not ) !

Good Life Project is a podcast that has never disappointed me .  I may have said it before but it is SO true.  ONLY problem is I am always in motion and do not write down /nor usually remember all the great references given in the podcast before I move onto doing other stuff.

 

Myth or fact : The way ti make anything look easy? By working at it, practice.
Myth or fact : The way to make anything look easy? By working at it, practice.

 

Today the  podcast  discussion  I listened to on Good Life Project with Jeff Goins ,”The Fine Art of Finding Your Calling ” is totally worth a listen to! This episode  really struck home on a subject near and dear to my heart and life. The term portfolio life has been totally in my face. Actually that is how this blog came to be! I wanted to see how I could ( pun intended ) weed out my passionate avocations/hobbies, interests/ hours of  time I spend without wanting to stop and resolve if and what would be appropriate addition to my vocations.    I also wanted  to see if this would be a great  way to reignite old passions of mine,to see if a new approach would be the spark I was looking for! SO here to to shaking up avocations/ hobbies/ and dabbling  with dreams of differnt income streams! Talk can be cheap, or expensive I guess once you get a great speaking circuit gig going 🙂

Listening to this  podcast today confirmed to me that being a  master of “some”  vs a  Jack or Jill of all trades was probably what I am  exploring… that is compared to my wearing the  “I am a photographer badge ” proudly as if I “should ” not confuse people with all the other wonderful creative outlets that were dear to me.

SO I get inside to do my notoriously long to do list ( which included make a point of doing a post on this site ) and then I go outside in the ( warm but not brutal heat) to work more on one of my other on going passions – the garden, and  got side tracked ( no surprise) while taking down the Sukkah … all while listening to the Big Magic Podcast with Elizabeth Gilbert. Yep , it was meant to be. Brene Brown and Elizabeth talking together truly reminds me of a great heart to heart with some of my dear friends. So what is the take away? MANY, lets see… I  will likely have to edit this post to really give more of the gist but a few of the loud and clears for me:

When we fail at a creative undertaking / or biz or ( fill in the blank of any major project you have invested bookoo time and bucks and emotions in)  it is not the time to negate inspiration. the antidote for that shame is empathy . And when it comes to discipline being the hallmark of getting these creative undertakings done think again how self forgiveness for what you did or did not accomplish today vs beating yourself up more that you did not show the proper amount of discipline.

Amen to that sistas.

And with that said . My big man work gloves that I wear on top of my skinny gloves to protect me from the pain of the puncture wounds from handling Argentinian Mesquite branchs with their 3 -4 inch thorns or the  Palm fronds that I just pulled off the Sukkah with their huge spikes…. seems spot on  for this particular blog post ( if I do say so myself ! )

 

 

Olives want attention too!

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Garlic olives, home grown, home made in the making

Olive trees. For those that are allergic,  they can be brutal. Messy, pesticide sprayed high maintenance trees that go along with ornamental oranges in my mind of silly fruit baring trees planted in the southwest!  BUT, if you do not spray them , and fertilize them and bother to go out of your way to pick and pickle them… delicious home grown , home made garlic olives = MAJOR yum for months. So as the temperature is starting to feel human  here, and with  LOTS of urban farming things to do outside ( beside the rest of life to dos/ work  and … did I say hiking  anyone ?)  picking and pickling olives is on my timely to do list ! Snooze you loose.

 

My answer to my unrealistic to do list … do nothing, it actually helps me get things done!

I am a major to do list writer.Almost every 24 hours (with  many editing notes and check marks in between)  I like to dump  out my busy to do list banging around in my head on paper . Yep , a spiral notebook that seems to be easier to get stuff down faster than ANY digital means. That, along with my personal life hacker tracker and  I can actually have a better grip on where my  illusions of grandeur wish list of dos end, and reality of what gets done begins. But the best part of the overwhelm that really seems to get me back on track ? After the mid day review… I usually take a 30 minute to 1 hour meditation/nap  break that most Hard to do in lots of work situations. I know. I used to close the blinds and lie under my desk with the door closed in my studio years ago 🙂 I have also been know to tell clients I need to go away for 30 minutes to hide and regroup during a long day shoot.

Kind of like starting a new day, mid day ! What you read about meditation is all true. Doing  nothing really does help getting lots of stuff done, with much more clarity!

So say no to those wasted  attempts to finding  something left in that tired  brain and say yes to checking out . Hope it helps you too.

Amazing how shutting down briefly really lights up my barin
Amazing how shutting down briefly really lights up my brain. Dare I call it a reboot?  Nothing surprising here to readers who regularly meditate  … or nap  🙂

What is the old saying something about turning, a new leaf , or a page or something

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So here we are . Oct 4 , 2015 . FINALLY fall is showing its Arizona Beauty. No fall colors here. Well unless you count the sukkah decorations from Michael’s crafts that attempt to satisfy the craving. Last few nights have FINALLY been tolerable to eat outside ( if you are like us and eat dinner late). Lunch in the sukkah  today , thanks to strategic planning with tree branches overhead was actually quite pleasant.  I could actually say working outside in the garden from 7am till 1pm with rain on and off began to feel like the reason gardeners garden !!! So here is to rain, and seeds and sprouts, and fall and moving on. Let the fall/winter sunny Arizona fun  begin!

What happens when you fall in love with your summer fling?

I know what it feels like to feel like dirt. In more ways than I wish to share. But when the outside temperature is past 103 degrees (as it was today on Oct 1 ) and it has been that way for months,  I accept the fact that I have truly , passionately fallen in love with my summer fling.

Ok …. as you probably know if you read my posts and know me at all I am one of those crazy people that do not give up gardening in the brutal heat of the desert southwest summer. Honestly though by 9am I am drenched in my own salt and wiped out, but really gardening is just not the same as good old outdoor exercise and I do love the outdoors. BUT , I have NO desire to hike or walk and ride or even get in and out of cars in this heat. AND thanks to my husband I have become much more protective of my skin than I did for way too many years. Gone are the days of hiking in shorts and tank tops for me.

But I have a very true confession. This summer I fell madly and passionately in love and although I have not thrown caution to the wind completely  ( I have taken many measures to protect myself  ) I know I am still very vulnerable .

I have grown passionately in love with  doing laps at the Scottsdale City  Aquatic Center!  Not exactly an extra marital affair so what is the big deal ?  Well sadly the  lap lane hours and my schedule have left me having to choose between truly safe swimming ( aka rarely due to the sun exposure ) or throwing caution to the wind and  swimming mid day with protection . Honestly there is just not enough protection ! With a swim shirt on and lubed up with what seems to be 1/2 tube of sunscreen per session I still know I am getting way more exposure than  is wise. AH, but the temperature of my body FINALLY internally REALLY cools down while I find the motivation to truly huff and puff , and  I watch my thoughts disappear into the water. I actually am beginning to think the meditation  and  breath work that goes on in my  40-60 minute lap sessions truly surpass any yoga class , definitely working out in a gym surrounded by the add of all the tv monitors and music and people to relate to as I attempt to find a mindful moment. -swimiming_in_gratitude©_2013_Linda_Enger_Photography7091

SO for now I am totally into my summer  love, and wondering how fickle my love will be. FYI my hiking boots have been getting used in the garden so they are not extremely jealous and get their fair share of my salt.